by Beth
(Texas)
OMG - This is my 3rd time trying and this time I have made it cold turkey without a cig. I am actualy having my most difficult night tonight maybe it is the fact that the moon is the biggest full moon in 20 years. I think that I am going to go for a walk look at the moon and pray a little and then try to sleep thorugh to day 7. I pray this stops and why is this hard to do? Why would anyone ever start this? If I could do this again? Why do I want this so much, is my life so shallow? All I know is the next bad turn and I could easily go back. Help keep me straight.